Grandpa’s hands

“Ew  I don’t wanna hold your hand Grandpa they’re yucky”.  Those words hurt  but they were true, my hands are kinda yucky.  We were in Redmond Town Center, going to see Santa Claus, it was the cold of  winter and  while my hands are never “pretty”, in winter time they are  really kinda  gnarly.  Dry and split, stained with grease, dirt and nicotine. Constantly bleeding or scabbed from  something  somewhere, my hands  always hurt somewhere.  I  don’t treat my hands very well. Never have and probably never will. Continue reading

Suicide is Painless

– no it’s not! If you’re thinking about killing yourself  call 1-800-273-8255

The title of this post is  misleading –   “Suicide is Painless”  is a song title – it was the theme song to  the TV show M*A*S*H , loved the show and  I even used the song as an audition song in my acting days. Not because I was very good at singing it, but because it evoked emotion in me. But it is a misnomer. Even those of us that contemplate it  know that.  Wait,  WHAT?  Us?  You?   Yep me…..  I am a person who has contemplated suicide many times and may have attempted it a time time or two.  But  that doesn’t come close to defining who I am. I am not my mental health.  Continue reading

Flaming

I cannot sit idly by. This is not a political post, this is not a bleeding heart liberal post for I am not a liberal, I am not a conservative. I am a human being that has common sense, eyes, ears and a heart. You have to be missing one or more of those things to not see, hear or feel the division and  the outright hate, bigotry and  lack of empathy,compassion or even common sense coming from the alleged president-elect.   Continue reading

Ripples – Edited and updated for 2016

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Eye opening bucket list

I just celebrated a  birthday, not  any big milestone birthday , but closer to  then end than the beginning for sure…  as  a “gift” to myself  I booked  several Dr’s appointments   since I’ve been  very bad about  going to  Dr’s for a bit now…  I’ve had some  bad experiences  so I put it off and  kept putting them off. So  for my birthday ,  I booked  an eye Dr, a heart Dr and  a  couple different Primary  care Dr.  appts. Continue reading

The Secret of NIMH’s Truck (An F-150 Tail)

I have been sharing my truck with  mice.  We live in the country, We have bird feeders. Mice are part of the deal.  We don’t use any poisons. Poison  kills other  wildlife besides the  target species ( owls, hawks, raccoon, possum, any  critter that eats the poisoned animal or the poison itself!)  we don’t use  glue traps because they are  extremely inhumane,  torturing any animal  is  wrong. Continue reading

Keep It Positive – Decorah Eagles – Petition for Bob

Keep it positive… that’s what I keep telling myself.

That  can be challenging when I feel  strongly that an important issue is being ignored, or a wrong is being done.

I see the uproar and outrage against the people that killed a lion in Africa.  I wonder what makes things “go viral” and what gets people motivated to take action on certain causes and there are times  that it’s really uplifting, and times where it is  sickening. Continue reading

Dreams

As most of my loyal readers know or have figured out, I have PTSD. I’ve had it and dealt with it for many years. I’ve tried many less than effective “treatments” over the years. Some not so smart, but that was before I really knew what it was that was “wrong with me…. After my actual diagnosis, I tired medication but didn’t care for how it made me feel… then I just tried to deal with it on my own, that didn’t work so well. I lived with it and helped other people and animals as much I could. Now that I can’t even do that, except through online activities ( I do hope to get back to being able to physically do some more work with wildlife and people again in the future) I am really feeling the depression side of the “disorder”. But unlike a lot of people, and unlike a younger dumber me, I am getting real help now… talking with a counselor, getting EMDR therapy, and looking into natural as well as maybe chemical assistance ( not alcohol or drugs sheesh… medication if necessary – going to work with a naturopath first). OK so enough of THAT nightmare stuff… let’s get to something a little more uplifting – Hopes and Dreams….

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#icebucketchallenge

I have been challenged by a few folks to do the #icebucketchallenge that has gone more than viral…. That’s a great thing right?   The fact that it went viral on social media and has raised awareness for ALS/Lou Gehrig’s disease – Awesome! At any given time in the USA more than 30,000 people have this disease and more than 5000 people die from it each year. There is no doubt it is a terrible disease. I accepted the  challenge(s), of course…… Continue reading

Ripples

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Saint Paddy’s, “Poppa” and Engagement Day

Saint  Patrick’s  Day.  For  some it’s a  day of partyin’  and  drinking  for no  reason whatsoever. For  others  it’s a day  of  religious  celebration  for the  coming of  Christianity to  Ireland.  For   my  wife it  was  a  day  of  sadness. She lost her   grandfather, Edwin Eyer (“Poppa” to Christy)  on this   day in  1990. Continue reading

Joy is Children’s Laughter

One of our  very dearest  friend’s  father  died.  It was not  completely  unexpected as he was not in the best of health , but still not expected…..he was “Papa John”, a   big man who commanded  respect and never went anywhere without his  “Peacemaker” … I’ve heard so many  funny , amazing  stories  about this man I was  looking forward to meeting him someday!  Knowing I’ll never  get the chance  makes  me sad, but  James’  stories will  hopefully  continue and  the lessons he taught his children and  so many others  will   be his legacy  along with  many other  things that he  gave the world…RIP Mr. Byers….

Papa John

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Murder of a Symbol

WDFW POLICE NEED YOUR HELP – On January 9th four dead eagles were discovered floating in a lake outside of Granite Falls (Snohomish Co). The four eagles were retrieved by officers on January 10th. Initial observations suggests at least three of the birds were killed using a small caliber rifle. It appears that the birds had been perched in trees before they fell to their death into the water. Continue reading

More then Just a Number – Making a Difference

Most of   you   already know that I’m a “member” of  and  semi-regular  “poster”  on  the  forum that   the Raptor Resource Project   hosts  to talk about   their  wonderful work and give their “fans”   somewhere to chat, ask questions, learn , share etc….   RRP are the  folks that manage the    Decorah Eagle   Web Cam……. They are a small   non-profit  organization but they  do wonders for the world…… check them out if you can and help ‘em  too if  you  can 🙂 Continue reading

Stay Safe, Be Kind, Keep the Park Clean, Pay it forward, Make a Difference and One Love

This is a messsage I posted  for the Memorial  Group for the two Eagles in  Decorah, Iowa that perished  by electrocution that I run… . I’m sharing it here with you  so that more people can see that we  made a real difference and   also to explain some of my  “closing  remarks” that you may see in other  posts I make and   now understand the meaning 🙂  Enjoy…. Continue reading

Christmas Lights Hitch and a Crack Problem

Saturday 12/1- Christy is  gone  for  a  gals day….Easton is  at his new  dream job  working at  Crystal Mountain  Ski Resort ..working mornings  and snowboarding  after work…I worry  like crazy but  at the same time I’m  very proud that he’s  doing something he loves.  I’m  at home  with the critters and a  honey-do  list…  Continue reading

Oh Canada – You ROCK – Conclusion

I left you  on a cliff hanger?   No I didn’t,   I just   gave  you some teasers  as to what was in store for this post that’s  all….. I said  “There’s  music and dancing,   violence and   wildlife…   gambling and  even some law enforcement  issues!!!!! Part three  will be  exciting!!!!” Continue reading

The Day I learned of the death of Decorah Eagle D14

I received word   in the  early morning of  Novemeber 27th,  2012 about D14’s  Death by electrocution.  My wife and I were just  preparing to leave Vancouver, BC  from a  wonderful  weekend  getaway.  During our trip  I received  several “signs”  from  Eagles that I’ll write about  later…..

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The Raven Formerly Known as Arty and I

Part 1

Dawn breaks ,  feathers  ruffle and preening begins.  The cold time is coming,  my breath is  visible from my  beak and there’s  slippery spots  on the flat places in my space… my space that I can’t figure out how to get out of…  I know there’s a way because the other ones like me come in from out there into my  space, invaders, abductors, some are scared of me  and I laugh at them  and torment them … Continue reading